close~PURE CLOSE

this few days really hard to contact you.
dont know why.
though i might think of you.
but the feeling is not as strong as before.
when you didnt reply or answer my call i felt hurt in my heart.
but dont know why. the pain is lesser.
does that mean i am getting used to the attitude you shown to me?

i dont want to get used to this.
because.
i knew what is going to happened if i get used to this feeling.
i will stop sms you subconciously.
then distance is going to formed and drifted further.
no. i dont want this to happen.
i just hope that we can just be close.
pure close.